My journey to calling myself queer has been incredibly privi..
Added 2021-02-15 17:36:11 +0000 UTCMy journey to calling myself queer has been incredibly privileged. I’ve never had the safety of my shelter threatened by those I live with. I’ve never had my family give me ultimatums or impossible asks. I’ve never been on the receiving end of any sort of small minded phobia. I had a red carpet rolled out (basically by @thenonbinarydom) and waiting for me because being a cis white woman, I’d get apploded for breathing if I found the right cult to do so. But that didn’t make the internal battle any easier because that landscape is faced alone. It took me almost 30 years to begin to embody being queer as something more than a s3xual appetite. Not because I am ashamed, but because I am inexperienced. I have a dating history dominated by d|ck. I wanted to be over the intensity of inexperience anxiety by reading books and talking about feelings and going to therapy. And that helped…but that didn’t give me tools or skills. Practice does. Awkward, uncomfortable, repetitive practice. Doing something over and over and over until the anxiety wears off enjoyment takes over and flow begins to form The hardest things to do are the ones most worth doing. But I’m finally here. I’m definitely queer. And full of all sorts of fear. But I know what I want and I refuse to be the reason I don’t get it.
