A long time ago, in this galaxy right here, I announced an erotic audio book project I have always wanted to work on. The goal was to release it on Tuesdays, and with everything happening in the world, it's been a slower process than I thought.
This post is just to say, yes it's still coming (hehe) but in the meantime here are some spicy photos for your Tuesday!
You have been sending me messages of support and I am so grateful for you. Many of you have been asking how I keep going when life is hard, and honestly I wish I had a better answer for you other then, "I have NO idea."
The truth is we push on because we need the distraction or maybe because not doing anything is worse. I know I've said this before, but if you're struggling right now, I see you and I'm so proud of you for continuing to push through when times are hard.
You deserve ALL THE FRUIT SNACKS!
All that being said, I will be at GenCon doing some things! Who's going?
First of all, thank you all so much for the support and kindness you showed me with my last post- I was REALLY nervous to admit that I was struggling (ironic? yes. On brand? Also yes), and so just hearing such kind words from all of you was so gratifying and relieving to me, I wish I had the words to let you know how much it meant to me.
Next up: It's Final Foot Friday. Or First Foot Friday, I suppose, depending on how you look at it, the calendar was weird this month.
It's been a long, long week for a lot of us-- I don't know about you, but one of the things that helps me the most when I'm struggling is just ...touch. I will KILL A MAN for a good backrub, and foot rubs are absolutely no exception, so I made this little video for you to enjoy. POV: you're being really nice to me while we hang out and I try to remember the plot of Stranger Things. (Don't worry I put some music in there because the ACTUAL conversation we were having was RIDICULOUS and involved an argument about Vecna vs the MindFlayer).
There is a lot going on in the world right now, and so I just want to remind you that it's okay to take a break. It's okay to need to take space away from the news, it's okay to put your phone down. Remember to drink some water, to eat a snack, to take your meds, remember to breathe and remember that you can't pour from an empty cup- take care of yourselves so we can take care of each other.
OH ONE LAST THING: I have a really big favor to ask- I got asked to partner with HelloFresh to do this new cooking competition thing they're doing. It's happening LIVE on Twitch on Tuesday, July 5th at 5pm EST and I am SUPER nervous that nobody is going to show up- the other streamers have like five times the following I do, and so I feel like the awkward new kid at school who doesn't have any friends. If you're free, would you mind swinging by the stream to support me? I'm trying to get a decent amount of Fruitsnack Nation representation in the chat and I'd love for you to be there. It'll be streamed here:
https://www.twitch.tv/unleashthefeasttv and also on my channel at the same time.
Thanks yall!
Have a safe and wonderful weekend, Thirstosaurs! Catieosaurus
I just wanted to pop in here to say that on Monday, I lost a dear, dear friend of mine who I've known since I was 14. I lost my dad when I was 20, and he stepped into that role big time and was a huge part of my life. He was like a father to me, and now he's gone and I am...not doing very well. On top of that, on Tuesday, Chris wrecked his car and on Wednesday, I got some bad medical news that is looking like it will involve pretty invasive surgery and ALSO last week, I found out our home needs multiple thousands of dollars in repairs from water damage that we didn't know about...and all of that is on top of *gestures vaguely at the state of America*.
I'm not doing great, and I feel such a responsibility to this community and to all of you, and one of the big things that I love doing the most here are your customs. I know a few of you have been waiting a long time for them- I try to get a couple of done a week, but the past few weeks have just been awful, and this week, especially, has kind of just broken me a little bit.
I'm not okay, and so I just want to beg your patience and your understanding. If you are mad or upset, I take full responsibility for the wait- I didn't realize how emotionally vulnerable custom content can be, and so I tend to need to be in the right headspace to make customs I'm proud of-- and the past few weeks have just been an avalanche of awful that I'm really starting to feel the effects of.
I work really hard to normalize conversations about mental health and advocating for your needs, and even still, this is really hard to write because I feel like I'm admitting that I'm a failure or something. I know that's silly, but that's what my Scumbag Brain is telling me, so I just wanted to thank you all so sincerely for being here and for extending me the grace, kindness and compassion and support you show me here in this space.
Anyway, I don't want to bring the room down more than I already have, but I just wanted to let you know what is going on with me, and so if I'm a little slower to respond or am a little scattered, please know that it's not you and that I am just infinitely grateful that you're here.
Hey y'all, I have some *super frustrating news*: last night after my Sybian live, my computer crashed while it was processing the video, and I lost EVERYTHING, the entire file is just gone and there's no way of getting it back.
Normally I wouldn't be so upset, but so many of you have already reached out about the PPV that it's looking like it's literally going to cost me rent and bills this month and I'm honestly really upset.
If anybody *happened* to maybe screen record any of it for your own personal enjoyment, it would massively help me out if you could send it over my way. OBVIOUSLY we all know that posting my content elsewhere is a violation of OFs terms of service, but y'all have been just so incredibly kind and respectful when it comes to honoring my boundaries about keeping this space for the Spicy Stuff, so I'm hoping that maybe a couple of heroes out there have at least a few clips for me to share?
If you do, please reach out, I promise I will not be at all upset or offended, you'll honestly be doing me a huge favor.
Thank you to EVERYONE who came out last night, I had a great time and I hope you did too! We raised about $300 for the Trevor Project which is pretty cool!
I'm going to go cry a little more ♥️🦕♥️🦕🦕♥️ Catieosaurus
It's been a wild week in the TTRPG community and I'm tired. I just want to say that I am SO thankful and appreciative of you! Your support keeps me going, and you absolutely matter.
This photoshoot was so much fun to make that I couldn't keep any of it as a PPV. I wanted to spread joy today as we all definitely need it. I'm also on my way to NoCoCon for the weekend, so if you notice I'm a little quiet this weekend, I'm on the con floor!
Hopefully no con crud this time! 🤞
What are your weekend plans? How are you taking care of yourself?
Til next time! ~Catieosaurus
Side note: I promise the BOGATSBWAPK erotic audio book is on its way! If I could get my brain to focus on the things I want, that would be greeeaaaaat!
We are one week closer to my BOGATSBWAPK erotic audio book reveal! I have a lot of it written already, but I've been struggling with the opening scene, to be honest.
Do we start right in with a steamy sex scene OR do we open in a public setting, like a coffee shop? I mean, you know I love me a good edging, yet I'm torn because sometimes the anticipation is unbearable. So why not do a poll?
Side note: This outfit gives me "Author headshot" vibes. What do you think?
Thank you for supporting this dream of mine, and always encouraging me to go for the things I've always wanted in life.
So excited to read your thoughts! Happy Tuesday! - Catieosaurus
If you haven't seen, we didn't make it to Momocon this weekend. We had to make the hard decision to back out due to lingering effects from Frolicon, BUT LOOK AT THESE PICTURES! What do you think? Aren't they gorgeous?
I was so nervous. This is something that I've always wanted to try. Shibari is a magnificent intersection of bondage, kink, and performance art that is deeply rooted in centuries of Japanese history.
There's something so beautiful about fully surrendering, to have permission to just exist. The goal wasn't to escape, like in my other bondage PPV content. It was to trust in the artistry of the binding and the rope to hold my existence while suspended.
To surrender to it.
I highly recommend it if you get the chance to try it out. I was so excited about this experience, I sent a PPV to your DMs this week! I also have another coming on Sunday as well!
Also, the first preview of the BOGATSBWAPK book SHOULD be ready soon!
Thank you so much for being a part of this journey with me. I'm so thankful for your support, your stories and the experiences you share with me.
Still in recovery from Frolicon, so that first teaser chapter of my BOGATSBWAPK book will be coming soon. However I couldn't keep this photoshoot to myself any more so I'll be sliding into your DMs in about 30 minutes!
It was such an amazing experience and since we've been talking so much about stepping outside of comfort zones, I had to share it today!
I'm still at Frolicon, but I MADE SURE I still got at least SOME content scheduled for y'all today. It's been very busy, but there are still plenty of fruit snacks left for the table.
I just wanted to give y'all a heads up that I will not be as available for the next few days in my DMs because I'll be at Frolicon in Atlanta, GA, educating about neurodiversity and kink!
If you're going to be there, this is my event schedule this weekend. Feel free to stop by and say hello! (and yes, I'll have fruitsnacks at my fan table for you).
I present to you officially the most un-sexy photo in the history of OnlyFans.
Y'all I want to be honest, I am STRUGGLING. I am allergic to... something, and having been to three different doctors, nobody can tell me what, but I've got massive hives all over me, so you'll forgive me for not feeling particularly sexy and up to regularly scheduled content. I itch like a MOTHERFUCKER and it just keeps getting worse, so I'm taking it easy right now.
However, I **do** have some EXCEPTIONALLY cool news that I'm really excited to share: I'm writing a porno.
SPECIFICALLY, the burnt out gifted and talented submissive brat with a praise kink porno the world needs.
Search your soul, you knew this was inevitable.
Next week I'll be starting a new weekly project (I'm thinking Tuesdays but we'll see) where I'll post some short snippets of my progress and give you the opportunity to check out an audio option as well.
Once it's finished, I'll be publishing it as a real-live erotic novel, and I'll probably offer y'all some sort of OG cool kids signed copy deal or something.
It's a little pie-in-thr-sky, but I think having the opportunity to share it with y'all as it changes and grows will help me stay on target for completion...hehehe.
I'm sorry I don't have more content for you today but I just...wow I just truly feel awful. Im also sorry I'm behind on some of y'all's custom orders, this week has been a lot of doctors appointments and benadryl, so thank you for your patience while I figure out what the fuuuuuck is going on.
If you HAVEN'T ordered a custom and you're like...hey wait you do customs, yes indeed I do! Slide on into my DMs and we can discuss getting you something special.
If you'll be at GARF this weekend, I'll be there- come say hi! If not, have a wonderful, wonderful and hopefully less itchy weekend than mine!
I CANT BELIEVE IT I FINALLY OWN A SYBIAN! I'm freaking out. Genuinely. Both from excitement and also because you'll see at the end I turned it on and this uhhhh may have been way more than I bargained for.
IMPORTANT: let's cum for a cause:
A LOOOOT of you have reached out about the PPV for this, so I'm offering an early access opportunity if you want to be first to see the video of my first SYBIAN ride-- *anybody who tips $10 on this post will get a preview in your inbox early*, ahead of the full video that I'll drop later in the week, and I'll donate to the Trevor Project as a way of paying it forward.
This is a longer video, (about 20 min) so grab some popcorn (or some lube, I dunno how you party) and get comfy!
I know it's only Wednesday, but in talking with y'all in my DMs, it seems like there is a consensus that you really like my riding/reading videos...so tonight I bought a Sybian...I've been saving up for awhile now and it was finally financially viable...soooooo
🎶 I just did a bad thing🎶 🎶I regret the thing I did🎶
J/K I have absolutely no regrets...should we schedule a live show sometime later in the month to show what this baby can do?
So listen, the past couple of weeks have involved a lot of my chasing after a very energetic new puppy and *not* a lot of attention in the orgasm department, especially since both of my partners are occupied elsewhere this weekend!
What I'm trying to say is that I've been all hot and bothered for *days* and I've got nowhere to put all this energy, so I thought I'd take a quick few pics for you to enjoy while I figure out what to do with myself.
Maybe slide into my DMs and give me some ideas? Tell me what you'd do with a good girl like me if you had the weekend alone with me?
I'm also thinking about taking out my pink ride-on toy (and maybe a couple of others) and taking care of it myself...what do you think, should I send out a PPV of my enjoying my alone time this weekend?
I know it's only Monday but I've been really stressed out with the new dog and everything and I could use some encouragement (and, yes, okay, I wanted to flex on some more of these amazing photos).
I have some very exciting news- some of the proofs from my most recent ~spicy shoot~ came back and I had to share right away.
Also if you love these and you want to get your own hot-ass photos done, reach out to @kyliemmayhew_ because her work is 🔥🔥🔥🔥
Which one is your fav?
As aways, thank you all so much for being here! Your support is what makes my continued mission of advocacy and education for neurodivergency possible, and I'm so grateful to each and every one of you for your kindness and your support!
Happy...what even is it? Monday? Happy Monday, Thirstosaurs!
Normally this is spice-only content over here, but I figure it's also okay to just let you know about the things that are going on in my life, and today, I was on the motherfuckin' TODAY SHOW!
If you want to check it out, they did a lovely feature about ADHD in women, particularly the experience of being late-diagnosed, and I'm honestly just really proud of the fact that in a little over a year, I've gone from "some dork on TikTok" to "the person the Today Show calls to talk about ADHD".
Even more importantly, it's just got me thinking about how grateful I am for all of you, since your support and your kindness is what allows me to continue my mission of advocacy and education for the neurodivergent community. Low-key I feel like it's *because* of all of you that the Today Show called, because without this incredible community, I'd still be just some dork on tiktok, so thank you, genuinely, from the bottom of my heart.
The link is here if you want to check it out: https://www.today.com/health/mind-body/adhd-girls-women-3-people-share-diagnosis-stories-rcna18883?fbclid=IwAR3Ba_VYBiQo44r6Bk_8_n5Rou57zitx4dQUenNhkMySc8qUbFsaSH5WbM4
It seems a whole heck of a lot of you saw my Mostly Pans video today- thank you for being here! Whenever we get a bunch of new kids, I always like to say hello and thank you for being here!
The income that I make here on OF is what allows me to pursue my mission of advocacy and education for neurodivergency in kink/BDSM spaces, as well as accessibility and inclusivity in gaming. (It's also what allows me to keep making tiktoks!)
I'm so thrilled you're all here. As a reminder, I have a custom menu, so if you haven't seen it yet, slide on into my DMs and let me know what you're looking for- I am *always* happy to get creative and get you exactly what you want- and if you're looking for more content, if you've got monthly renew turned on, you get a few exclusive bonus goodies during the month!
We did it! We made it another week. I don't know about you but this week felt like a month of Mondays.
Sometimes, when I'm as exhausted as I am, it's nice to let someone else take charge...so I'm taking charge today, and I'm telling you that your only job is to make me feel good. Can you do that for me?
While you're at it, go drink some water.
These boots were too good to just be in photos, so I've saved a couple of surprises that'll be showing up in your PPVs this week. Want to see them in action? Don't forget to check your messages.
As always, thank you for being here. Your support is what allows me to continue educating and advocating for neurodivergency in sex and kink spaces, so it means a lot to me that you're here.
My feet are tired, who wants to give me a foot rub?
Listen, one of the best parts about having this wonderful community is getting to know such a fantastic group of people with different interests, both kinky and non!
By popular request, quite a few of you have asked for more foot content, and so I'm very happy to introduce you to Final Foot Friday, where on the last Friday of every month, I'll post some fresh new foot fetish content for your enjoyment.
Seriously who is gonna get me a foot massage tho cuz now I **want one**.
I am *not* feeling great today- I'm waiting for the results of a COVID test, I'm hoping that it's just a mid-winter cold, but I feel like total ass.
I'm not up for much content today, so here's a couple of pictures of me pouting about it...but I still look cute tho.
I promise not to perish before I finish my birthday content and cum for y'all--- IMPORTANT it's the 14th and I still haven't cum plz send the cum police I just want a goddamn orgasm.
Hey everyone, thank you all for checking in when I didn't post yesterday (and thank you all for the birthday wishes).
I just wanted to let you all know that I am *safe and okay*, but the final two birthday week vids will be posted in a couple of days.
I'm sorry for the delay, I wanted to get them out as a series on time, but there were some personal safety issues during the convention we went to this weekend that made it really difficult to get content made, which also resulted in a fun mental health spiral that I'm currently working my way out of, and today was our drive back, so it's been a three-day shitshow.
I still plan on finishing the series, but I just wanted to let y'all know what was going on, since so many of you reached out!
Thank you all so much for the kind words and well wishes, it is so nice to feel so loved.
If you purchased a holiday greeting during the Black Friday sale, please make sure that you filled out the survey (https://forms.gle/MKHE3iKCBq1dcqgx9).
A couple of you bought a message and didn't get the information filled out, so I wanted to make sure that OF didn't block the link or something.
If you missed out on purchasing and now you're like "hey wait I want a custom holiday greeting", no worries! Slide on into my DMs and we can make something happen.
Stay tuned for Friday, it's going to be a holiday spectacular.
One of the hardest parts about what I do is that I live in two worlds- I grew up as a performer, and in grad school and beyond I had "the show must go on!" just fucking DRILLED into my head, that there is no excuse to miss a show, that you power through and keep working, that taking breaks is for the weak and pausing to get better implies laziness...
BUT I am also a mental health advocate, and I recognize how unhealthy that honestly is.
The truth is that I feel like absolute shit today. I was going to try and power through and put together some content, and try and catch up on the handful of orders for customs that I've still got hanging over my head, but I am exhausted and I do not feel good.
We are at PAX, and it's been a wonderful experience so far, but boy am I struggling.
As such, I am going to not worry about content today, but I will try and get some bonus content out to you soon. For those of you who are waiting on your orders, thank you so much for your supportive words and patience, it means the world to me to check my messages and just see "hey, it's okay, we understand". I love this work, but it's really hard, and I often wind up not having nearly as much time as I thought I'd have, so I just really am grateful for your support.
However, in my not feeling good, I also require entertainment! Tell me what content you think I should make next week?
I just wanted to say THANK YOU so much, the holiday sale was a rousing success! I am still working on uploading everyone's order as it takes a while to process through the system due to OF's processing system and the number of custom orders I got, but I'm hoping to have everything uploaded for you by tomorrow/Friday at the latest!
Thank you all so much, I continue to be so overwhelmed with gratitude for your enthusiasm and support!
